I think I did absolute shit for my finals. Let alone my parents, I don’t know what I’d do to myself if I screw these tests up again. I haven’t been this worried before. I studied so much but I could barely pen down the proper facts for any of the questions. All the answers were so minimal while everyone else around me were writing down extensive paragraphs.
I’m freaking out inside, my heart palpitations are off the charts and my anxiety levels are so volatile. This morning was the worst when it came so sudden and I fell to the ground in the shower. I was so scared that I wasn’t sure if I could get back up.
Leaving college tomorrow is probably the best idea, there are too many people here all the time and having to contain myself in front of everyone else is getting to me. At this point I don’t really mind if mum sends me anywhere for house arrest. I think I do need the lock down.
Anonymous asked: Don't hate the world too much. Have hope :)
hope is such a disgusting faith.
Do you see what you’re suppose to see or do you perceive what you think you want to see out of an event, something or someone?
People never really know the right kind of questions to ask.
When you really find out the answer to your questions, do you really want to know after all?
They always say “The lesser you know, the happier you’ll be”.
But no, humans possess a gift made out of a divinity’s craft so complex…the brain.
Does not knowing satisfy your curiosity?
So you’re curious.